Empty.
Gaping hole.
A wound that continues to be reopened no matter how long it has been healing.
Searing pain caused by a flash.
A memory .
A smell.
Suddenly my mind becomes a Time Machine.
The fog of memory loss/suppression is lifted.
I can tell you every detail of the room.
Every single color and sound.
But this is not a happy place.
I’m no longer an adult.
I’m 6, 9, 12, or 16.
Every second flashes by slowly.
Im watching it all in third person.
Just when I can’t stand it
I’m brought back to the present.
By a smell
By a sound
By touch
Be still my racing heart.
You are not there anymore
Memories are just those- memories.
With each day they will
Ever so slowly lose their power.
Because every day
You are stronger
Braver
Breaker of chains
The wound closes and
Healing continues
Because of YOU
Because you continue .
Amber Schultz
2023
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